It has been way too long since I’ve written a blog post, so I wanted fill you guys in on what’s going on with me and my little company, KayDauria Swimwear. The last blog post I wrote was “How to Make New Year’s Resolutions You’re Excited About.” I apologize for not keeping in touch with my little KayDauria community, but please stick with me and keep reading.
When I wrote that post I realized what goals I had for myself and how far away I was from reaching them. It was kind of a wake up call for me. I was working a low-paying job with no move-up opportunities in sight. I was surrounded by people who were complacent with where they were at. And I had just lost my mojo. I dreaded going to work each day, the days dragged on, and I too picked up a feeling of complacency.
I also hadn’t taken a day off work in over a year. So here I am writing this post on making New Year’s resolutions and it hits me how unhappy I am. I think I was so busy “running on the treadmill” that I didn’t even take a second to stop and see that 1- I was exhausted and 2- I wasn’t going anywhere.
In that moment I made the decision that something needs to change, I also knew it wasn’t slowing down on KayDauria Swimwear. Dreaming of what KayDauria Swimwear could one day become and the dream of being a positive influence for others was what kept me going. It was where I felt like my true self and where I had my mojo.
What was draining the true Kayllie was where I spent my other 9 + hours a day. So, I set out to make a career change. And yes, it would be amazing to make KayDauria my full-time job one day but I’m far from making that a reality. And even if it was financially feasible, I feel like I’d be missing out on developing myself as a professional. I feel like there’s still so much for me to learn and experience in the business world surrounded by the right mentors.
I was working as an executive assistant/ marketing coordinator for a team that buys failing businesses, flips them, and then sells them a few years later- hopefully for a profit. It was interesting because I got to be a part of so many different industries and in my one year at the job, I had learned a lot. So I’m not at all saying that I had a horrible job but like said earlier, the company wasn’t the right fit for me.
But I did learn about myself. I learned what I enjoyed doing and I learned what absolutely drained me. For example, I learned that I especially liked being on the business vision side of things. When I was able to sit alongside the executives and build a vision of what this failing business could one day become, I shined. I could instantly see a vision of what a business could become, and I’d throw out my visions and ideas and together we’d paint a picture of the businesses 3-year plan.
So, when I began my job search, I began searching for the same role- executive assistant/ marketing coordinator. My friends and family thought I was crazy. They knew how unhappy I was and didn’t understand why I’d be looking for the same thing. But I knew that the working with the right people, in the right company, with the right vision is where I wanted to be.
I spent so many hours researching companies, best places to work, sending applications, etc. And if you’ve ever looked for a job you’ll know it is absolutely exhausting! And it brings you down. People telling you that you’re not good enough to work with them is… well, depressing! It makes you question your self-worth. Maybe I’m not good enough. Maybe I’ll just work for a low-paying job forever. Maybe this is how life is. Maybe I need to lower my goals for myself. If you’ve felt that way while job searching, I am right there with you. It makes you question your entire future!
I knew that God had a plan. I knew that for a fact. And that fact kept me sane. Every time I walked into an interview I just told myself if it’s meant to be, God will make it happen. Which is always hard to swallow, but it’s true.
I went through multiple applications and interviews and in April I found myself interviewing with a financial firm. I had thought it would be something I would dislike but I was pleasantly surprised. I had a moment when I was sitting in the final interview “this is the right place for me right now in life. It has the right people. You’re prepared you for this.” Say what you want, but I know God was talking to me.
I started my new job as an executive assistant/marketing coordinator for AltruVista on May 21st. It is a challenging environment but from what I’ve learned I am my best in environments where I feel appreciated and challenged. I’m writing this blog right at my 90-day mark and I’m finally feeling like the “old me.” There was a definite learning curve starting my new role and I’ve had times I’ve felt overwhelmed.
All this to say, I haven’t been as involved with KayDauria Swimwear as I want to be. I made the decision to put the blog on hold and use my weekends job hunting and (the past 90 days) learning a new industry. Now that I am feeling like the old me and can devote my weekends back to the blog I will be a lot more involved.
To my blog readers, thank you for sticking with me while I made some necessary life moves. I’m excited to get back into blogging and keep you updated with KayDauria Swimwear and my life too. If you have any suggestions or topics you want me to write on, I’d love to hear them!